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up, reduced to a mortal state. I felt such pains that I would
have wanted to die a thousand times rather than see my Lord

suffer so much. I felt ashamed of my little sufferings.

The Most Holy Virgin added, but always crying: “Come closer
to kiss the wounds of My Son. He chooses you as victim,

and if many offend Him, you, by offering yourself to suffer
what He suffers, will give Him a relief in so much suffering.

Won’t you accept?” I felt so annihilated; I saw myself so bad
(as I am still) and unworthy, that I did not dare to say “yes”.

My nature trembled; I felt so weak from the past pains, that it

barely left me a thread of life. Then, I don’t know how, I saw
demons yelling and shouting from afar, and that everything
I had seen them do to the Lord, they were going to do to me,

if I accepted. I felt such pains, sufferings, straining of nerves
within me, that I thought I was going to leave life.

Finally, I drew near and I kissed His wounds. It seemed

that, after I did that, those limbs so lacerated would heal, and
the Lord, who before seemed to be almost dead, would begin
to revive to New Life. Interiorly, I received such Lights about

the offenses that are given, and attractions to accept being a
victim even if I should suffer a thousand deaths, for the Lord
deserved everything, and I could not oppose what He wanted.
This happened while we were in mute silence. But those

gazes that we exchanged were as many invitations, as many
burning darts that pierced my heart through. The Most Holy

Virgin, especially, spurred me on to accept; but who can say
all that I went through? Finally, looking at me benignly, the
Lord said to me: “You have seen how much they offend Me,
and how many walk along the paths of iniquity, and without

realizing it, fall into the abyss. Come to offer yourself before
Divine Justice as victim of reparation for the offenses that
are given, and for the conversion of sinners who, with eyes

closed, drink at the poisoned fount of sin. A large field of
sufferings opens before you, yes but also of Graces; I will
never leave you again, I will come within you to suffer all that

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